under one enveloping umbrella
this is a tiny corner of a projekt i've been working on for the past 30 days.
today marks the last day of my 30 day projekt and for once I did something consistently for 30 days. fuckin' a, the number of 30 day challenges i've started with hope, and abandoned with shame. i did miss a few days here + there...but i made up for it the next day each time. soooo, it counts.
this projekt was a little different. it was just for fun. i gave myself permission to spend an hour +/- of my free time everyday to play around on something that's not directly related to my music career, for no other objective than to enjoy my time at my desk. i get down on myself for lacking discipline, work ethic, and you name it, all the time. but thankfully i journal a lot and sometimes get a rare flash of a nice idea to try. so i suppose 31 days ago i had a flash of a thought in my morning writing that if i'm gonna teach myself discipline, positive habits and learn to keep my own appointments, i need to practice and maybe this time start from a place of fun. all my 30 day challenges in the past were just hard. not the kind of stuff that made me launch out of bed with obsessive itches + craving.
but this worked. i got up at 6am, at 4am, and whenever...with excitement! playtime waiting for me. yes yes. and like i was hoping i strengthened my discipline muscle a little. i can just feel it.
through this objective-free/for-fun-only projekt i happened upon a way to tie my various creative endeavors together under one enveloping umbrella. for years i took creative time away from one discipline to nurture another, in guilt-ridden circles, round + around, without one discipline ever advancing fast enough for my liking. and now i think i can make all this work together with gravity towards each other and a leg up for all of them little ladies. my creative purpose doesn't feel so scattered anymore. what? are you kidding me? i'm throwing a big parade in my head from how thrilling this is.
all right...so what am i trying to communicate to you that's worth your reading time?
start something for fun. let that thing breathe and drive you where it wants to take you. if you drive, you're more likely than not going to drive down the same old familiar paths you know and never end up anywhere new. and one day is not enough. let the thing drive you around everyday for a while. ooh, i'm excited for where you're gonna go. send a postcard.
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